I have a therapist I can contact, she’s a trauma therapist and has given me techniques for when the stress and anxiety are too much. I’m not in the same place anymore as I was back then, I’m not really depressed so much as just feeling a bit lost and wanting some direction. I recognize the importance of a therapist and will call her if I ever get to that point again.

I’ve tried to meditate in the past, but I never feel any difference and whenever I look up meditation apps they always ask for a subscription to even the basic meditation information and I just can’t justify paying for something that can truly help a person’s mental health in that manner. It just feels scummy, like these apps are saying “I see you’re depressed and have anxiety, if you pay me I can make you feel better”.

I play video games, specifically guild wars 2 and I’ve found a really friendly and inviting guild to group up with, and that has really helped. I also wanted to get into blacksmithing at some point, I’ve always liked the idea of being able to hit something with a hammer really hard and make something cool.