Retested. Yup. Got me. Mostly feel ok aside from some whomp level fatigue. No fever, nothing else.
So, back to a week of recovery.
AuthorNico
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TengrainMy dearest, I write from war torn Pioneer Courthouse Square. The single-bean coffee is running out, we haven’t long before craft cocktails are gone, too. I’ve seen folks walk around with empty bags from Kenny and Zuke’s, their Lululemon torn asunder. Even the hot yoga studios have fallen. If you don’t hear from me tomorrow, check for my remains near my fixie as I am heading out to the battle in the Alphabet district. Know my last thoughts were of you and Salt & Straw.
My sister has gone full Can-MAGA.
Not surprised, honestly. She barely graduated HS.
Bike has a new issue. First i think theres an issue with the chain gears, but now also the battery/speed controller. I think its just a replacement needed but arghh.
Not depressed. Tired. Just worn down tired.
Im not entirely surprised. My own mother loathed me.
Im here bc my son. Leaving this existence would break him utterly but i go through my days mostly wishing i hadnt been brought back from a near fatal asthma attack when i was 16.
Like. I get it. My entire existence seems to be an affront.
I feel like maybe i should make myself silent and invisible. Small.
Im starting to believe i am not worthy of kindness.
Another day, another round of being snapped at.
Some day i’ll learn. Most days i just want to slam my head against a wall till i lose consciousness. It’d be better for everyone if i did.