god my ocd makes me feel like the weirdest psychopath/sociopath. literally wish everyday that i had a normal fucking brain and wouldn't have to put myself or anyone else that i love through the ups/downs of my mind. it's a constant battle from the time i wake up to the time i go to sleep and then repeat every single day. im really sorry that i'm so closed off to almost all of you. i feel like some freak that belongs in an asylum whenever i do speak about it or myself. i'm so tired