Finally starting to notice this striking inverse correlation between
- whether something is confusing
- whether you've read a book about it

This "google things as you need them" habit, I think, It's actually pretty bad

Somehow I taught myself this helplessness. Struggle over years. Feel like I'll never get it.

Have you read a book about it?

Well, no

@chris_martin i've never read a book about commonlisp and i know that! as i was typing that sentence i realized i've read almost every single book in circulation on the subject but just kinda took it for granted somehow & it suddenly makes sense that very few of my more complicated ksh scripts work very well.