tfjOn some days, the amount of variables and possible consequences that I try to prepare for just knock me flat on my ass, leading into a downward spiral of self loathing and depression.
Today was /almost/ one of those days. Almost.
This downward spiral seems to almost always root itself in money.
In the acquisition of it, the retention of it, and the usage of it. Every step. Not just one.
Why do I do this to myself?
Maybe it's not my fault, and this is reality. Maybe I don't just do this to myself, but it's actually a force of nature.
Maybe it's universal. Maybe this clawing (and unquenchable) thirst for resources happens to be a part of humanity.
If that's the case, we can change it; and we should try to.