@Friar If I could draw well enough I'd credit you!
My guess for why it has to be "hush-hush" is probably a combination of how controversial (deserved or not) you are outside of CubHub (and this is only based on my observations on what I see you post about here) and your general uncompromising artistic choices - which I personally respect quite a bit, but a lot of people don't like associating with people that already have a bad reputation.
This isn't a put down, just me being frank about how you can somehow live in ivory towers while also outwardly signaling you like diapers - a difference between shutting people out and mutual respect for people that don't align with your tastes in the same corner of life. Many people prefer the first one when they're afraid of other people.