You don't need to excel or be the best. You don't need to conquer or be elite. It's fine to just exist in the world, it's fine to just enjoy something, and not compete or monetize.

@RickiTarr Thank you for this. I've been working on deprogramming what I was pressured to value from high school right up through when I left NASA.

It feels good to finally just exist, 30 years later, growing the garden of my life, reflecting on rounds of learning, finally settling in.

I know what I enjoy. Knew all along: I want the tangible world, hands-on skills, conversations passing neighbours in daily work. But these days, it takes deliberate practice to keep these values.