the more we're all encouraged to optimize our time and deliver more output, the more i want to never hit a single metric again in my life.

i want to commit on a project and never launch it. i want to code slower, spend more time choosing colors, re-invent wheels that will never get used - not better, just different - taking as long as possible.

i want to spend my time imagining different ways to say a thing, just to enjoy saying it differently.

zero output, always only process forever

I spent the last two weeks at the theater every evening - 'devising' a new show (working title "Clockwork Utopia") with a really lovely ensemble of writers, performers, and musicians. It was an excellent two weeks of play with no clear result.

(sadly we will eventually make a show - i'm sorry if it ends up "productive" - but that show will be so much better for our wild lack of efficiency)