If you have an ability to make music (or at least have at times made something resembling what could be considered 'music') - and are not literally currently prevented from doing so by life stuff / illness / looking after someone who's ill etc. - can I recommend you just do it? Inspiration can be overemphasised and romanticised - but sometimes the most inspired material didn't "feel" very inspired in the moment. Much can come of sessions that felt dutiful, even mechanical; the inspired feeling can even be noise - lovely when there, but not always signaling anything long-term.

Either way, you'll have made something new that didn't exist before, rather than not have. Which is pretty amazing, when you think about it.

@Cognessence this is so good. I find it easy to get lost in the why, entrenched in the Capitalist world of productivity and marketization. Just to create is to be human.
@Torithom Yes! “Just to create is to be human” is beautifully put. And what you said is part of what makes a certain capitalist framing insidious: it doesn’t just commodify the output - but the current cyber iteration colonises the entire impulse itself, so that even the desire to create can end up pre-audited, with the question “but what is it *for?*”