@spaf Imagine that you had surrounded yourself with people who competed with each other to fellate you, literally or figuratively. Imagine that all of those people transparently had much to gain from their association with you, many because they have no actual competence, others because they had businesses that, in a corrupt system, could only operate with a pass from you. With even a little self awareness, wouldn't an indelible self-loathing wash over you? More adulation would only exacerbate.