Nowhere Girl
Every once in a while a trans woman asks if it's normal to not remember large swaths of her childhood and the answer is always trauma, trauma, trauma.
Mar 27 at 9:05pmWeb
Show threadNowhere GirlMar 27
"If you don't actually exist as yourself, you probably won't remember it."
Show threadWitchMar 27
@gwynnion *smiles sadly in system*
Show threadMoriel 🏳️‍⚧️Mar 27

@witch @gwynnion

looks at new member just added to PluralKit a few minutes ago

Yeah.

weakly smiles back

Show threadavatastic  Mar 28

@gwynnion is that before or after they transition... because there's a lot of gaps back there and ...

#NotAnEgg

Show threadNowhere GirlMar 28
@avatastic Both, at least in my case, but I always knew. Even as a child, I spent a lot of time in a dissociative haze because I consciously didn't want to be there, and trying to think about my situation or remember things was like reaching into a bag filled with snakes. After a point, I didn't want to remember. But you can't always help that either.
Show threadLou 🏳️‍⚧️Mar 28

@gwynnion
I remember almost nothing before I was ~11¹, that's just having a very bad memory, right? Right‽ 🙈🙉

1: and mostly negative things for a few years afterward, but that's depression