GustavoFring279

journaling through grief is messy and nonlinear and i think that's okay

https://lemmy.world/post/44586762

journaling through grief is messy and nonlinear and i think that's okay - Lemmy.World

My dad died seven months ago and I’ve been journaling through the grief. If you can call it that. Mostly I’m just screaming onto paper. The entries don’t follow any logical progression. I don’t move neatly through stages. One day I write about acceptance and the next day I’m furious at him for dying. One day I’m fine and the next I’m writing his name over and over through tears. Some entries are just memories. Things I don’t want to forget. The way he laughed. How he always burned toast but ate it anyway. The last thing he said to me on the phone. I don’t know if journaling is helping me grieve or just documenting the grief. But I do know that without it, I’d be trying to hold all of this in my head, and my head doesn’t have room. If you’ve journaled through losing someone, I’d just… like to not feel alone in this.

Mar 22 at 11:29amWeb
Show threadTrackinDaKraken2d ago

Mostly I’m just screaming onto paper.

Been there.

I think the physical act of putting pen to paper is important. The pressure, the speed, the neatness--or lack of neatness--of the writing–that tells us how far along we are in the process. When I started writing more neatly, started repeating myself, and writing in circles, I realized I was near the end. I kept the paper for about a year, but then threw it out. I never went back to read it, and I didn’t want it anymore.

Show threadbearboiblake2d ago
Yes, you’re doing great, this is a really healthy way to process your emotions. Let yourself feel it, all of it, the good and the bad. Don’t hold yourself back, don’t block anything out. All of your feelings are valid.