I think one way "male socialization" affects me as a trans woman is that I was taught to hate myself in a different way than cis women are taught to hate trans women. Cis women are taught to hate trans women as impostors, and even as unattractive, but men are supposed to hate trans women because we're not fuckable. That's not to say that there aren't a whole lot of cis men chasers, but the "problem" cis men are supposed to have with trans women is that we're men and therefore no homo or whatever.

So my dysphoria is based largely on the fact that I see myself in the mirror and see a man. If boys weren't taught that girls aren't supposed to be manly at all, I suspect that my personal dysphoria would be greatly lessened. I know that's not the case for many women, and I suspect that I would still feel a dysphoria which was a fundamental disconnect between myself and my body, but a lot of it is that I can't see the woman in my body because the man drowns it out, as it were.

Since I wasn't raised as a girl, I don't know whether trans masc folks have the same issues, but for trans femmes, it seems like it's pretty inescapable that we would internalize at least a little of that toxic male hatred of masculine women. I don't know. This is probably old ground, but it came to me the other day.