All of my friends are dead. I went out tonight for an evening of beer and and watching skate vids at my dive bar. Found out my ex-fiancee and good friend passed away. That brings the total up to 12. Everyone around me overdoses or gets killed. I really don't know what to do anymore. 12 people just from the group I rolled with. I'm not old. I'm 33. I'm so fucking tired of this. I have exactly one friend still alive that I met before I was 25. I don't know what to do. I shouldn't be the one still alive. I miss them all so much

Karina
Brandon
Colt
Jay
Kyle
Jason
CJ
Tank
Chandra
PJ
JJ

And now Ashley. I don't know what to do. I think I'm cursed. Everyone is dead. Its just me and K and no one else. Just pulling along tombstones of people that should have made it instead. More talented. Smarter. Kinder. Softer. I don't know what to do.

I won't be online for a few days. I'm sorry if yall have problems with the instance. I'll fix it when I get back if something goes wrong. I'm not going to do anything stupid. I just can't exist in a way that is conducive to being an admin right now. Thank you all for being internet friends with me. Please don't die.