mānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 20

आज की तारीख है बीस मार्च दो हज़ार छब्बीस।

हम तो बचकर निकल आए हैं।

लेकिन यह देखने लायक था कि वह लोग किस तरह से बच्चों और कुत्तों को मारने वालों की क्या रक्षा करते हैं।

हम बैठे हैं किचनीर के पब्लिक पुस्तकालय में बैठें हैं।

शांति से।

आराम से।

प्यार करते हैं हम
हम प्यार करते हैं
करते है प्यार हम
हम करते हैं प्यार

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हमारे परिवार में एक रिटायर्ड नौसेनी के वाइस एडमिरल हैं।

फिरबी इनके जिंदगी में किस तरह की कमी आ गई कि इन्हें बच्चों के साथ बख्तमीज़ी का जुगाड़ करना पड़ा?

मुझे आज तक समझ ना आया।

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Vice Admiral (Retd.) Pradeep Kaushiva is my respected, loved, and admired नानाजी nānājī (essentially, maternal grandfather).

https://oneglobeforum.com/speaker/2015/vice-admiral-retd-pradeep-kaushiva-one-globe-2015-speaker

Mar 20 at 8:10pmWeb
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“Vice admiral is a three-star flag officer rank in the Indian Navy. It is the second-highest active rank in the Indian Navy. Vice admiral ranks above the two-star rank of rear admiral and below the four-star rank of admiral, which is held by the Chief of the Naval Staff (CNS).”

(wikipedia)

Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 20
The last interaction with the social worker and psychiatrist that I had before the discharge was them telling me that I would not be permitted to return to the room I stay locked in at the biological household's house. Because I did not agree to taking a medication that has 'increased appetite' as an individual who lives on the enforced legislative poverty of ODSP.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 20
I personally am of the opinion that people who slap peaceful, well-behaved children for no reason and slap well-behaved dogs for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON and refuse to recognize the harms caused are in a position of disrespect to each and every one of their pantheon of gods & goddesses.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 20
I am also of the opinion that there are rotting groceries and waste in my room that has been sitting there for over 2 weeks now and taking care of this routine & vital task is of utmost importance to everyone's respiratory wellbeing. I have never intended anyone any harm and I absolutely intend to ensure that the rotting groceries & waste do not cause respiratory illnesses, or worse.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 20
प्रदीप नानाजी तक आवाज़ पहुंचानी पड़ी है हमे। हम इस घर के नौकर नहीं हैं ना तो कामवाले। इज़्ज़त चाहते हो तो बच्चों पर हाथ ना उठाते, ना तो टैबी पर। कुत्ते ने क्या दुख पहुंचा दिया कि कुत्ते तक हाथ उठाया गया? मै बर्फ में जम कर आखिरी सॉस लेकर गायब हो गया तो सब की बदनामी होगी, यह समझ लीजिए सब। अगर ट्रेसपासिंग का दोष चढ़ने की कोशिश करी तो घर की सारी गंदगी पूरे दुनिये के सामने पेश करी जाएगी, यह बात भी समझ लीजिए सब। हम पहुंचेंगे आज रात को आखिरी ३१ बस से और सीधे कमरे में जायेंगे, चुप चाप। हमारे कमरे में
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 20
सड़ते हुई ग्रोसरीज़ है और अगर हमने आज के आज साफ़ न करा तो रेस्पिरेटरी इल्नेस हो सकते है सबको, यह बात भी समझ ली जिए। हम किसी को नुकसान नहीं पहुंचाना चाहते, इस लिए सड़ते हुई चीज़ों को तुरंत साफ़ करना चाहते हैं। हम थोड़ी ना चाहते थे कि हम किसी पर भी हाथ उठाए ज़िंदगी भर। जो लोग प्यारे से बच्चे की शांति से कही बात ना सुनना चाहे और साइकोलॉजिकल टॉर्चर करे चालीस साल के लिए, यह बात बच्चे से ज्यादा भगवान की बेइज्जती नहीं हुई क्या? हम झूठ नहीं बोलते कभी भी किसी से, इस बात पर गर्व लेना चाहिए सबको। हम झूठ
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नहीं बोलते, इस बात पर काली अम्मा हम पर बहुत प्रसन्न है और आप सब को भी गर्व लेना चाहिए। यह सब गलती के जवाब में गलती थी यह बात हम मानते है और हमने काली अम्मा से माफी मांगकर ही करा है। अगर कोई कंप्लेंट हो तो सीधे उनसे बात करे आप सब। वह हम पर नाराज़ नहीं हैं, हमने पूछा हैं उनसे। हम शांत हैं।
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
Went back to the house. Talked to mom for a while while standing on the porch, they had changed the locks. I anticipated as much. I am glad I went there and got toiletries and some of the groceries that I had purchased. The 3 apples hadn't gone bad? I was surprised. Going to enjoy one soon. Had to convince her to let me take some of my stuff. Packed a bunch of stuff, and most importantly cleared out some of the waste and threw it out into the garbage bin.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
Took the stuff that hadnt gone bad with me. Have enough to exist for a while. Headed to a motel which is booked for 7 days by them, they didn't want me there and I said that I respected that, but that I should have some of the stuff that I have purchased with my own cash. Got a bit of cash to exist on for now. Have a batch of laundry to sort out, will see how that goes.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21

At the motel.

The people who are unhoused have dukkha.
The people who are attempting to alleviate the (a) immediate and/or the (b) long-term dukkha as well as the (c) possibility of people becoming unhoused have their own dukkha.

Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
I see no reason why I should be forced to have such horrendous mental health that I need any medications to begin with. I further see no reason whatsoever to be made part of the group of unhoused people when I have devoted my entire existence and life so far to a sincere traversal of The Noble Eightfold Path.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
The social worker there was trying his best and I do not want him to feel at all bad for even a moment as to whether I felt negatively about him. I think it got to a point where he was doing what he had to as far as his role and his space of potential actions or organizations could go.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
He simply did not seem to have the appropriate resources, organizations, and maybe tools/expertise permitted to him where he could reach a conclusion other than suggesting that I leave and go directly to a shelter for unhoused people.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
This was an untenable suggestion to me as I had next to nothing with which to survive having to exist unhoused outside of a shelter that permits me (potentially) to be there for the night, but does not allow me to remain in a safe and hospitable environment during the daytime.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
That would likely have been extremely difficult and damaging to my mental health, where I would not be able to find safe, warm and peaceful spaces to meditate. I would also have to deal with having NONE of the necessities for basic existence and having NEARLY NOTHING to spend to buy things.h
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
The saddest part of all this would have been that I have perfectly functional & usable things that I have carefully purchased and maintained at a significant level of quality so that I need not spend any of that money again. Money which people on ODSP are simply not in a position to spend even once.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21
The social worker there was trying his best as was I, attempting to build trust and practice clear communication where we could figure out a positive path forward. We both got to a point where it felt like we could not interact with one another without things feeling like we weren't making any progress or speaking about the matters at hand in a way where both of us felt like the concerns which we both had were addressed satisfactorily.
Show threadmānas 🤎 🇵🇸Mar 21

I appreciate all of the effort, time, and energy he directed towards the situation. I do not intend to leave things the way that they currently are, I will write to him and share all of these thoughts with him.

It is 1 minute past 1 am. I am in the bed at the motel and it feels better knowing that fresh air is moments away and not a distant, weather-dependent possibility.