Nowhere GirlExistentialism can get you through a few depressing Sunday afternoons but if you're trans, it's like taking aspirin to deal with having your legs blown off.
I hate being trans. I'm glad if you like it. But I hate it.
Sorry. I'm being a bad Buddhist, too.
I came out and transitioned like 30 years ago, and I don't regret it, but sometimes it feels the same as when I was a teenager.
Rachel Lawson@gwynnion 15 years and kinda same. I’m far more confident than I was. Or am I? Not sure. Maybe in different ways. I know old me would not have travelled like I have now.
Irenes (many)@gwynnion we're all imperfect, we're all works in progress 💜
disorderlyf@gwynnion Confusing and pissing off chuds can only fuel the fire for so long
Friendly Neighborhood Chuck!
timberwraith@gwynnion Well, I certainly wouldn't put it in my top 10 favorite life options, I can tell you that much.
@gwynnion I just got back from doing a run for takeout here at work and as I pulled up to the drive-thru for my americano at the local coffee shop, a (cis) woman in her 20s opened the window to wait on me.
Just in that brief moment's time, I felt this piercing flash of deep yearning and envy for a life I didn't have.
That happens somewhat regularly.
I wouldn't have chosen this, given other options. It just happened to me and I've spent decades learning how to survive it.
Tyla (Combat Waifu Yuri Arc)
The McKennas 🏳️⚧️ ♾️ 💖@gwynnion
Being out and trans is better than being closeted and trans, and existentialism helps with that, but it does really help to have something more than just 'radical freedom' to keep going.
One must imagine Sysiphus spiteful.
— Nellie
Zośka@gwynnion
Many of us do and many of us struggle to understand why we belong to a minority that has to deal with a whole heap of problems because of a joke of the Nature that led to firmware not suiting hardware.
There's no good answer to that. That's how our lives are. Is there any alternative? Pretend that you're cis, while you are already aware that you aren't? It's a hell. It literally splits mind in two.
I keep my fingers crossed for you and send good warm vibes (not vibe-code) from Europe.
Steffie 🏳️⚧️ :rubber_pride-heart-600: : :triple-moon-transfem: @gwynnion I don’t know if I like it, but I like recognizing and understanding that’s what I am. It’s far preferable to the box of denial I was in.