What made you choose to go through with it in the first place?

What makes you miss it now? What is it about then vs now that you miss?

I was told by people I know and in support groups that it was the next stage and that if I didn’t I wouldn’t ever feel like a real woman. I was told that I would be seen as a man by others and that I could be assaulted by people I meet and hook up with. I don’t really know, I guess I believed the shit people told me and thought it was the right thing to do. It was not.

I miss peeing while standing up. I miss… (People will think I’m a troll for this)

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I miss jacking myself to porn. Touching myself in general down there. Feeling myself down there, jiggling my balls. Things I took for granted back then. I also hate dialating, I haven’t done it at all in the past 2 months. It just feels so gross to stick something inside me. I don’t even care if this rotten hole closes up. It’s not like they can fix it or put it back how it was.

I miss just having it in general. Seeing myself with a dick back then I never thought anything of it, but seeing myself with this disgusting hole in my crotch just makes me want to vomit, and always makes me cry. I look so disgusting, I know other people don’t think I would look disgusting if they saw me naked but I look disgusting to myself with a vagina. I hated it so much that I ended up breaking my bedroom mirror out of anger, sadness, and disgust. Tore a 2 inch gash in my hand doing that.

@[email protected] @[email protected] Why remove my comment?

They didn’t, our auto-mod did. We have an automod that detects profanity.

I have disabled it for you now.

Oh, @[email protected] @[email protected] I’m sorry My bad. I’ve been very volatile lately. I’m hurting very badly lately.

That’s entirely understandable. It’s a small aspect of what you’re going through, but people with vaginas can pee standing up (and you’ve already learned how to control your stream and aim, so you’re ahead of the others).

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If you make an upside down peace/victory sign with your hand and place your first and middle fingers on each side of your labia majora, you can pull everything forward a little and control your aim from there.