I honestly just want to disappear somewhere and start my life over under completely different circumstances. I need reliable friends, I need a better job, I need to find my soulmate. I need to be somewhere else that isn’t the place I've been for the last 30 years.

Something has to give, or I feel like I”m going to be crushed by the weight of stagnation. I’m tired of waiting “just a bit longer”, I feel like I’ve been doing that for the last 12 years, thinking (delusionally) that change is just around the corner if I hang in there. Nope. Clearly I need to take my life back into my own hands.