Something white folks like me from "middle class" backgrounds really need to fucking deal with is that privilege isn't just the advantages that put us a little ahead or give us a little more comfort or space or whatever.
Privilege is also having the real ugliness of the "American way of life" hidden from us.
There is no justice here. Our prisons are full of the suffering underclasses that are impoverished, criminalized, & enslaved. Unhoused people are treated like vermin to exterminate.
Financially, my family was at the bottom of the white "middle class", barely able to uphold the image.
There were times my parents barely managed to afford food for all of us. We went through some tough times.
You know what my middle-class ass did not have to deal with, despite that? Being dehumanized as a target for state violence. We weren't always considered the "right" kind of people, but we were firmly in the group: "people the police still speak to with a small amount of 'respect'".
That's the kind of fucking privilege that keeps you docile & asleep.
It's a fucking police state out there already, motherfuckers. They were just hoping you wouldn't notice.
No matter how class conscious we might try to be, how forward-thinking, how interested in eliminating poverty, those of us starting from this point of privilege rarely fucking think about what the real fucking danger of poverty is: becoming an underclass with no way to appeal or escape your unjust treatment.
Every time I start to write like this, I start to worry about somehow "overstating" things or being "alarmist", but fuck no.
I have never been as clear or unequivocal about this as I should be, because the fictionalized "America" in my head still sometimes overwrites the actual United States I see with my eyes, hear reports & witness accounts from, & can look at the data about.
Some voice in my head still tells me it's hyperbolic to speak this way, but that's because I'm fucking propagandized.
A lot of us middle class folks first wake up to the idea that we are being exploited, & if we are empathetic & have some self-awareness, we will get from there to understanding that some people are *more exploited* than we are & we know that we should care about this.
So because we are empathetic & aware, we start demanding things that ought to help all of us, & especially lift up those most struggling.
It's a good start.
It's not a sufficient understanding of the true circumstances however.
Poverty isn't just "can't pay the bills."
Poverty is also "can do nothing about harassment by cops or the legal system."
Poverty is "everything you could do to help yourself or your community breaks some laws or regulations or is functionally impossible."
Poverty is "the State has extreme power over you, because you can't survive without the tiny pittance that is your disability check."
Poverty is "your kids have no future because the State keeps your schools bankrupt."
The reason we can't legislate ourselves out of this nightmare is that our laws exist to *create* this nightmare.
At some point I think we have to admit that what the system *does* is what it is intended to do.
Our "legal" system makes the poor—especially the racialized poor—slaves & prisoners. People often wait months, even years, in jail before they ever face trial, losing everything & being cut off from friends & family despite being convicted of no crime.
At what point is the injustice too much to bear?
"The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas?" Oh if only a single tortured child were enough for us to reject this defunct capitalist nightmare "utopia"!
How many children have to be torn from their parents because of petty crimes, unpaid fines, or simply FALSE ACCUSATIONS before it really disrupts our peace of mind?
How many years of human misery behind bars in torturous conditions are too many?
How many indigenous communities torn apart, harassed, abused, starved, & stolen from?
How many Black men (& Black folks of all genders & children) shot by cops?
How much is too much? What does it take to count as an oppressive police state? How many lives?
Does it matter the color of their skin or the background of their families? Does it matter how educated they are? Does it matter whether or not they are houseless?
No justice. No peace.
Maybe the biggest fucking privilege of all in this fucking country is the fucking privilege of never seeing your parents jailed because they are too poor to do anything about it.
It's never being selected as a target of police harassment.
It's living your fucking days in any way that could make you see the cops as anything other than violent oppressors who fucking stomp you & all your friends & loved ones under their feet.
That is fucking privilege.
My biggest fucking privilege is that I get to live my life in a way where—if I chose—I could spend most of my time pretending I am free.
I'm not. You're not. None of us are.
But some are allowed the illusion if we will just accept with docility the harm which other people experience & show our own deference by behaving as "good, decent people."
Fuck "middle class". Fuck "the American dream". Fuck "upward mobility."
It's not freedom until we tear down the prisons.
It's not freedom until everyone's children have food to eat.
It's not freedom until we stop fucking ripping apart indigenous families, Black families, families of color, poor families, HOUSELESS families...
This is not fucking freedom. This is not "order". This is brutal fucking oppression.
I'm sorry, y'all, I wish this could change with votes & legislation, but until there is a clean slate, all we're doing is trying to tailor the oppression a little more neatly.
It is baked in. You just ignore it because it doesn't align with your image of your comfortable, "civilized", "decent", middle class world. That world doesn't exist, so you can't preserve it. It's a lie. You can't build a better society on a lie.
This is HARD for those of us who have lived decades, perhaps our whole lives, under the illusion of our good, decent, wholesome, middle class way of life.
Like I said, I know the truth of these things & yet I STILL try to censor myself sometimes. I still worry I exaggerate or overstate.
Why? Because the fiction is so comforting & convincing. Because it feels like the truth couldn't possibly be so horrible. I live here, don't I?
The United States is a monstrous State with a monstrous past.
I wish it were otherwise.
I wish that learning the history of this nation was not an exercise in imagining vast & horrible suffering.
That would be nice.
Yet here we are. Until we remake this place, the corpses around the foundations will only continue to accumulate.
There is no good & decent past. There is no stable present.
There is only the hope of a better future built on something other than broken bones & irrigated by something other than blood.
I've said it before: I'm not an accelerationist, because we've already arrived. Actually, we've always been here.
The elitist fascist ethno-state is here.
What are we going to fucking do about it?
Are we going to try to preserve some people's peace & comfort at the cost of the lives & freedom of others? Or are we ready to stop accepting "freedom" & "safety" that requires millions of others to suffer & die?
It is fucking uncomfortable. I bet it's really hard for those among us who have kids, who want them to have stable, comfortable lives. Of course you do! You love your kids.
What about the people whose children suffer abuse in foster care because they have been stolen from them by the State, kids who will never enjoy the stability & comfort that you wish for for your kids?
Are you willing to choose "incremental change" that will result in countless more victims just so that YOUR kids are fine?
If your kids sink into the fully-expendable underclass as its boundaries expand, will you be ready to make the world anew then? Are you waiting until you have lost everything first?
It's not accelerationist to tell you to stop dragging your feet because it's time to fucking pick your side already.
Whenever we talk about "incremental change" we are calculating how many of which people's lives are an acceptable sacrifice to avoid the risk of society-wide upheaval.
The strange thing is, no matter how many years we continue down that path, we never seem to get any closer to "too many". The count always goes up, but so too does the threshold.
@artemis Once upon a time, I might have believed there was some value in preserving the existing system, in effecting regime change as much within the ground-rules as possible. People within the system have taken oaths to uphold it, to uphold those rules, and making people break their good-faith promises didn't seem like a good way to start.
...but when the offices at the very foundation of that system -- the Presidency, the Supreme Court (just to name the obvious ones) -- have so very clearly violated their oaths, what do those promises mean anymore?
They're either part of a contract which has been broken and is no longer in effect, or else they weren't made in genuine good faith.
@artemis I don't claim we have a solution for solving this without a "clean slate", but I also know that a "clean slate" without having built something to replace what's being wiped away will mean death for a huge number of people - disabled, those depending on ongoing medication or otherwise medically vulnerable, etc.
A lot of what looks like "incrementalism" isn't an unwillingness to shed the comfort of privilege but a knowlede that we don't know how to protect a lot of the less-privileged in "revolution".
@dalias
I guess to me, the clean slate isn't separate from building the structures of care because it wouldn't even be possible to get there without them. The revolution can't happen if our people don't have food & shelter & healthcare.
These are things that could be solved for a lot more easily if the state didn't come in & stomp people down whenever they do build their own structures of care. They'll fucking arrest people just for handing out free food.
A core component of the "old" system is that it attacks & attempts to destroy all attempts at something new.
And in the meantime, while we avoid distuption, countless people go without food, shelter, medical care, etc.
It's not that people will die for lack of those things. People are dying now for lack of those things. And the number only ticks upwards.
@dalias @artemis I think that's fair to write. I was just doing some writing about the 'adjacent possible'... and when I saw this thread I wanted to point out that we generally choose our prisons and do our best to decorate them well.
Freedom itself is an illusion; agency is not. And what we're really discussing, I think, is that agency. That sovereignty of the soul.
The clean slate only works if we can shape a better version of the cage of freedom.
We deserve better. We all do.
🎼 None of us are free while one of us is chained, none of us are free...
(The answer, my friend)
I guess it depends on who you ask. It's been too many/much for me for over 2 decades now, and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one.
On the other hand, there are people who apparently still think this is all fine 
, and I do not understand them.
It's as if social systems built on hierarchies are designed to be self-perpetuating.
@artemis Last night I was walking the beach and saw some big freighter or something out there a bit. It had a bright light on it, but the light went a different direction. It came inland while the ship continued.
My paranoid brain came up with special forces landing and I'm about to get popped in the back of the head by Iranians or something. Could totally happen now. I wouldn't be a target, just casualty as they came in to wreak havoc on infrastructure.
We do it all the time. Collateral.
@artemis My family was doing well until 2008.
The "Great Recession" and then the foreclosure crisis killed a ton of small businesses, and while my dad's roofing business still operated, that loss of spending power meant about half as many jobs a year.
And he was already 60 at that point, with no safety net here in the US. 50 years of paying taxes and he ended up with almost nothing to show for it. (Luckily they paid off their house.)
Hence why I'm not patriotic.
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