I'm alone, sad and tired. I want to bang my head on the wall to stop thinking. I see sparkles and reality become an insane nigthmare. I can't take a break, I want to be a stone to stop this suffering but life doesn't remain in rocks. That's unfortunate. Why human brain doesn't have a stop switch? It would be so simple to turn it off for a few hours. Mys eyes hurts and I can't sleep.