obligatory "man who secretly thinks about being a woman" is not a type of man thats a trans woman in the closet and "woman who secretly thinks about being a man" is not a type of woman, thats a trans man in the closet.

this comes up a lot for me because interacting with people on the verge of figuring things out have specific complexities of the world they've built up to project/hide who they are that tends to be the same shape as everyone else in that situation so its very familiar and knowable but theres always a bit of a game of cat and mouse of trying to side step that projection to speak to the real person on the other side.

@siege As soon as I ran the thought experiment of “Would you push this button that turns you into a woman?” it was basically all over for me. I didn’t know it yet, but it was *all* over.

@glassblowerscat @siege This. 💯 That was the exact point I realized, shit, I’m trans. I’d been skating around it, but never seeing it for what it truly was: gender dysphoria.

@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege If someone had asked me the button question when I was a child I would have smashed it to bits from hitting it so much. I'm one of the rare ones that seemed like I always knew but never had the courage to take the leap.

@glassblowerscat @AppleFangirl @siege I’m not sure which would be easier to deal with tbh.

@jaye @glassblowerscat @siege All I know is repressing that and internalizing it for five decades almost killed me a few times.

@glassblowerscat @AppleFangirl @siege *hug*