I'm so fucking tired.

My dad passed away last week and I am the sole beneficiary. I have so much to deal with and so much on my plate that I don't have even have time to grieve.

On top of that, for the past month or so I've been "flirting" with a woman that I fell pretty hard for, and she stopped responding so much in the past few days.

I have nobody. My 1 IRL friend makes plans and doesn't follow through. Nobody texts me.

I'm drunk as hell for the first time in 3.5 years and I'm spiraling pretty fucking hard. I can't deal with myself.😔

@BeAware hang in there

grief is hard and dealing with an estate etc is a pain (sadly have had some experience) - I'd suggest making yourself a list of the stuff that has to happen, the stuff that should happen, and the stuff that can wait. (get thru the stuff that has to happen like getting copies (more than you think you will need) of the official death certificate, of his will etc. You'll need that many times when dealing with folks like banks etc

If you can get help from a lawyer/accountant

@BeAware and do give yourself time to grieve - and at least my personal experience is that it comes in waves - even over a decade later I still find myself missing my dad when something reminds me of him That's normal. And unless you have to deal with something immediately (like stopping services/bills etc) it's ok to do stuff like put photos or whatever in a big box and deal with them later.

Take care of yourself most things estate related can wait once you get past the immediate stuff

@BeAware I'm sorry you're going thru that, estate stuff sucks and is a ton to do. 😟
@BeAware Sorry to hear you're going through that buddy. Have hope. Things will be better!