I think a lot about the fact that I wrote games criticism for years, including a regular column on a web site, and none of that exists now. Vanished, maaaaybe findable only in obscure links buried and found under a peat bog in the wayback machine.
It's like part of my career is not just gone, has no evidence for itself. If I was applying for a job where it was relevant, I'd basically have to send them saved documents and they'd have to take it on faith that these were, in fact, published.
@vampiress this is like my early web career. I built so many websites but when I was applying for the current job I went to every url and the only sites still using my design if they exist at all are sites I still run myself. Everything down the memory hole.