@skeletor I really wish this was true. Instead you can probably expect to wonder why you do and have to work on it.
Do a search for, "Why do I keep missing my abuser," and see how much turns up.
I'm afraid it's just not ever that easy. Our psychology doesn't let us off the hook. We have needs and build illusions that we have to murder.
You know what you'll regret more though? All the time you put off getting started.