Learning that someone you like isn’t into to you is hard. Learning that they were into you, but then suddenly stopped being into you, is harder.
But when you learn the reason they stopped being into you is because a horoscope app told them to…well, the sadness kind of flips to relief.
Because as shitty as it feels to not be given a try because of a fucking app… honestly, from an emotional perspective, that feels like I dodged a bullet.
And last night, I hung out with another former crush who started dating someone else while we talked about dating. And they were both mostly on their phone while I sat quietly waiting to talk.
I don’t know, I kind of feel like that was another bulletin dodged.
And the woman I was driving an hour plus to see treated me like an object on the shelf.
Mo kings, no masters, and no crushes.
I have this habit of approaching relationships from this perspective of spending a lot of emotional energy proving to someone that I am worth being with. And it keeps up being something that makes me feel worse about myself.
Honestly, I’m feeling kind of done with this. Like fuck dating. I pour so much emotional energy into these potential relationships only to have women tell me I’m worth less than the words in a horoscope app? What’s the fucking point?
why do these words, the words of people whose whose words demonstrably aren't worth the air they're spoken in, still hurt so much 
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Matilda Love