As a side note:
The reason why I don't have a therapist is both because I can't afford it and also because my case is a very unusual case for how this realm is and how some nurotypical humans see things like otherkinity or DID

Being shunted in a unfamiliar realm after being fractured for aeons and having to learn this realm the hard way does things to you
I still can't get used to this vessel and accidentally bump it into things
And still can't get used to how cramped this vessel is with phantom limbs sticking out and the fact that how beings socially are in this realm

I also have had to learn English as a defense mechanism (which is why I dislike it so much other than it being a pigeon language)

It's been a difficult 5 years of being here

And there's some humans I've explained my situation to and it's like they don't really comprehend properly and get concerned

And the way I also express my emotions in a more body language like manner and using different body language and less being verbal about it has also pushed some beings away (Some have thought I cared less and thought I was more upset or less thankful then I was or they thought I was feeling a different emotion then i was) except for several fellow otherkin beings in my polycule

and many seem not to know how to deal with my homesickness..

#otherkin #nonhuman