I recall reading about the phenomena of people believing in the “shadowy cabal secretly in control of everything” like the Illuminati because deep down, the idea that something in control, even if evil, was preferable to the knowledge that there was nothing in control - things just happen, almost at random.
I do see a bit of this leaking through what you’ve said here in the uses of “chaos,” “certainty,” and “comfort” in your statements. To be clear, I don’t really care if your faith is what you use to shield yourself from the uncertainty of existence - everyone has their own coping mechanisms - but I figured I’d make note of it.
Now, I do take issue with your other claim - who said there is no hope of things getting better? If it is just down to us to dictate things, we have been presented a problem, and I’m not inclined to believe humanity has run into a whole lot of problems we couldn’t solve. We’ve persisted for thousands of years - I wouldn’t count us out just yet.
Of course, if it is NOT up to us, and it is all dictated by God, then why should we simply give up and assume things will never get better? Is there somewhere God has dictated that it cannot be so? What actual evidence do we have, both theologically and scientifically, that things have no hope of getting better (particularly as much of our advancement flies in the face of such an assertion)?
If God put us here with no plan, then it is up to us to make the world better, and if God put us here with a plan, then it is a question of free will, and I’m inclined to operate under the idea that we possess such a thing, then it is up to us to find out the path to things getting better. As the saying goes: “God helps those who help themselves.”
In short, I can live in this world because I believe it can be made better, without the need for divine intervention, and because I cannot believe that a world filled with so many wonderful things is not worth trying to improve/save.