“I don’t understand trans people. Why would you have a problem with the gender you were given at birth? If I was born a woman I wouldn’t want to transition into a man”

- me before I realized I was trans

That’s literally me right now. I cannot imagine what someone must feel for them to transition and how they might feel because of the transition (though can obv appreciate and accept that some have those feelings I can’t directly relate to).

I don’t know, I genuinely feel like it wouldn’t change that much about my life. Even if the things I want and do stay the same, I feel like I could do those the same way no matter my gender. What does my gender even change about my life? Is gender even real?

The first time I allowed myself to wear a dress when I first saw myself in the mirror as a woman I immediately understood how it feels to identify with your body. Before I would always say I am not a body I only inhabit it. But as soon as I could see myself as a woman something clicked in my brain and for the first time I felt like I was that body. Before that I didn’t even know that was something one could feel. So at least for me gender is very real.

I still haven’t worn skirts often sadly - I feel the ‘parts’ are in the way. And I don’t know how to tuck them effectively - I have shapewear, but that’s it. Tucking it into the body I cannot do.

Plus I feel like I don’t dare yet to go full skirty outside yet. I don’t know if you’ve done so yet, but how do you overcome that fear? How do people react?