ljs

It continues to be extremely fucked up how much losing a ton of weight can mess with your head.

Have genuinely had an identity crisis that's lasted a year and keeps going as a result.

Google anything about this and all you get are weight loss tips for the most part 😅

Luckily I'm not doing anything insane in response + am completely normal...

Since really 2005 it's been fatrenzo up until 2025.

20 years of fatrenzo and 1 year of slimrenzo is fucking weird to deal with

Dec 11 at 6:32pmWeb
Show threadljsDec 11

Even during the slimrenzo period there's been change.

It's difficult, in the end we identify ourselves a lot with how we look whether we mean to or not, and that changing can be shocking...

Show threadThe Gym NerdDec 11

@ljs I never realy thought about it that way, but yes going trough such a drastical change in both physical appearance and life style must leave something behind.

I'm so used to structuring everything around training and meal planning, it defines a lot of how I live (and I'm happy with it). But I was always active since I was very young.

How does it feel for you? Is it good, is it bad?

Show threadljsDec 11

@TheGymNerd I mean the structure of the gym and now throwing in a bunch more cardio has been positive and it'd be weird to live without it now, it's a big part of who I am now.

Really it's more about - the shock of the change and how drastic it was.

I not only lost >50kg on the scales, I put on significant muscle mass, likely ~10kg and had a DXA-confirmed 5.8% body fat % at bottom of initial cut (pictured here :)

Have since put on more muscle and then cut off more fat, and moving to sustain of muscle mass with more emphasis on cardio.

But I've gone from 20 years of doomed attempt at losses to suddenly fixing it (whole story as to how) and it's extremely bizarre, it's a shock more than anything.

Picture your whole identity being X for 20 years then for 1 year you're Y and super unsure of what it all means or who you are...

Combine that with some mid-life shit going on and... yeah :)

It's the contrast and time scales I think!

EDIT: Likely 45% bf ->5.8% in 1st cut lasting 63 weeks

Show threadThe Gym NerdDec 12

@ljs That's really shocking to think about. I think I can't even fully comprehend this. 😅

But I'm sure it's better this way around than the other.

Show threadljsDec 12

@TheGymNerd yeah I mean, my life is infinitely better now but I am going through something of an identity crisis...

It was worse mid-way through, I got 'phantom belly' stuff where I'd go to sit at a table in a cafe and 'feel' my belly touch the table when it didn't...

Show threadofflinemarkDec 18
@ljs incredible work man, congrats! i started my fitness journey recently, this year was the first year I had success maintaining a regular strength training program