BPD is BPDing tonight. My FP (Favorite person, someone who I've formed a trauma-based Obsessive Attachment to. Since this is the first mention of such topics on my account here I'm going to be defining these) is not being very responsive after a morning that seemed to be pretty good?
The past couple of months have been rough between us. And while I'm not going to get into what happened right this second, it has (1/3)
On the mend. It's taken quite a bit of dialogue between us, and it definitely wasn't easy nor smooth. But I'm proud of it, and I'm thankful for her being so patient.
I got some advice the other day, I'm probably going to act on it. I'm going to make a journal for writing down splitting (splitting, extreme cases of black and white thinking usually gained from hasty conclusions due to fear of Abandonment) thoughts (2/3)
But encoded, something that's easy to write in but hard to go back and re-read, to avoid triggering myself.
It's not a bad idea. And it's better than panicking and repeatedly texting my FP or someone else who I can rely on in that moment.
I think one of my goals for 2026 is going to be working on becoming as self reliant as possible regarding recovering from BPD triggers. Hopefully after that trust issues will be next.
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