I am weeping. This essay broke my heart but also gave me real hope.

Keep being human. Keep loving human things. That's where the joy & delight is.

"The Colonization of Confidence" by Robert Kingett

https://sightlessscribbles.com/the-colonization-of-confidence/

The Colonization of Confidence., Sightless Scribbles

A fabulously gay blind author.

Seriously, it is kind of long, but it's worth taking a little time to take it in.

We can reach each other. Our connection to each other is not something that can be taken away from us as long as we continue to find each other.

The more dehumanizing slop is pushed on us, the more we are asked to lose ourselves to the mediocrity machines, the more we can come to value what is real & true in each other's voices.

@artemis I got through about a quarter of it before my attention wavered, but that was enough for me to know this is a person who feels as I do about this fucking LLM AI shit. I will have to finish it later.

@artemis I was honestly baffled about why he continued to attend that writers group.

There's a point where you have to realise there's no good you can do, and nothing to gain.

@artemis ha, the timing of this.

A good story. Thank you. Do we know if it's fiction, nonfiction, or a blend?

Edit: I read the followup after asking. It's not fiction! Excellent.

@WeirdWriter

@artemis this is fucking mortifying.
goes way deeper into (and essentially confirming) the idea that they are "cognitive hazards," from: https://www.baldurbjarnason.com/2025/trusting-your-own-judgement-on-ai/
only half-way through so far; reading this is like blow after blow. somehow knowing what's coming every time but also being surprised every time.

this line got to it the most

I feel so stupid. I let it into my head and now I can't get it out. I look at my own thoughts and they look wrong. They look like errors.

as if they're some form of virus that burrowed its way into their thoughts.
an absolutely awful idea that it cannot dispute. not even at the end yet and it never wants to touch the air around one of these things again

Trusting your own judgement on ‘AI’ is a huge risk

Writing at the end of the world, from Hveragerði, Iceland

@artemis done,
this was probably the best piece of writing it's seen so far
somehow conveying fury, but also victory
and absolute dread, the same kind from seeing a "Failed to send message" after falling out with a best friend, somehow multiple times too

the most justification it has ever had for adding a 127.0.0.1 entry for all of them into /etc/hosts and also the URLs into a uBlock Origin filter for good measure,
while also making it feel awful in so many different ways it did not even realise was possible

@artemis and also somewhat inspiring it to start a blog or make some digital drawings
usually doing anything beyond 2300 for it is a terrible idea, this was the exact opposite. thank you for posting this
@WeirdWriter and thank you especially for writing this
@0x7700e6 @artemis That pattern of convincing people that reality is the undesirable really replicates the way it felt watching as the rise of photoshopped ads (manipulation was always a practice - but as the protagonist here knows the innards of LLMs, I myself was good with image manipulation) and later, photo and video filters, warped how the younger women around me increasingly saw themselves into our teens, twenties, thirties: as *defective products*, and not the very magic all these marketers are trying to bottle and sell.

@0x7700e6 @artemis

The EVIL of it all takes my breath away.

There is no way I could sit through somebody spewing that vile soul-wrecking slop in front of me, I'd have shouted at them and stormed right the fuck out.

@artemis

this was an absolutely amazing read. i felt many emotions. i've had my works taken and put through AI slop machines before, and the levels of anger that i felt when people did that to me were enough to take a few years off my life from high blood pressure.

so to see a story that shows that we do not need to be complicit in the death of imagination, the destruction of brain function and the beat down on confidence if we do not want to is a breath of fresh air in a world that seems to be all "ai this, ai that"

not everything needs to be E for Everyone, smooth as yoghurt and neutral. that would be boring. thats what AI makes. we need a bit of grit to keep us entertained otherwise we'll just keep thinking "why the fuck am i reading this?"

great read, great points, solid 9 out of 10.

@artemis That was brilliant.
@artemis this is fucking beautiful
please read this !!!
@artemis this is incredible, thank you for sharing
@artemis
What an amazing read, thank you very much. It opened my eyes. AI must be declared like organic stuff in the supermarket. It's a tool to level out and work with a median of already existing data. It cannot really account for live and especially not for creativity and Art as such. To consume AI literature is like eating sugar instead of eating a candy. Gosh I'm kind of heavy on those analogies xD
I'd like to think though that, as a tool for data it definitely has it's uses.
@artemis
"You don't democratize creativity by automating the act of creation. You democratize it by funding arts education, by supporting libraries, by paying writers a living wage."
Great read, thank you