It's hard to even know you've got a blindspot, let alone work out what's in that blindspot.

I was in a class on Cisco networking at a community college. The students were almost all men, more disproportionate than my other computer and networking classes, which were already bad. It was a hybrid class, with one instructor, a man, in the room, and another, a woman, who was remote.

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For the first few classes, there were only two students who were women, two young Latinas who sat together. I noticed they started frowning when the instructor who was a man was speaking, but I wasn't sure why. He wasn't an interesting instructor and I remember being disappointed in his incuriosity when I asked him a question, but otherwise I didn't see a problem with him at first.

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After a few classes, the two young women stopped attending, and the remote instructor was sick and didn't call in, if I remember rightly. Anyway, it was only men in the class at that point, and the instructor, who was a man, made some grossly sexist and racist joke about the other instructor's name. A few people laughed.

I dropped the class. I regret not formally complaining.

I've suspected the two young women picked up on something I didn't, and I've always wondered what.

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@foolishowl

Probably some microaggression.

@foolishowl
Sounds like he may have been leering at them.

Short glances that wouldn't look like anything to anyone else.

@foolishowl Sometimes even if we can't put a finger on why, we just know there's something shitty about a dude. It's possible that even if you'd managed to convince them you could be trusted, they wouldn't have been able to tell you what was bothering them.

I've certainly had a number of times where a guy gave me a bad vibe, and then later outed himself as a sexist creep.
@foolishowl I remember my husband saying about a colleague: "My female colleagues all day he's an ausholen, but he's always nice to me"
It's not just what you're seeing, it's also what, they're showing you.