Am I just waiting for a break-up text now? - Blåhaj Lemmy

Me again… and, yes, this is a continuation of this [https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/29780067] and this [https://lemmy.blahaj.zone/post/30971946]. TL;DR: first crush and best friend in high-school reached out after 20 years of not talking, I fell in love with her again, she gave me mixed messages when I tried backing off, and then everything turned ugly when she thought I was pressuring her into defining a relationship by asking her once if she still wanted to chat. Had a brief argument around reading comprehension and semantics, then she vanished mid-conversation for two weeks. Now that we’re caught up, I sent her a text on Saturday, trying to tie up all loose ends. Basically, I wanted to confirm the ghost, see if she really just decided to not deal with this, or if something else happened. Sent her the message, waited for about 6-7 hours, then sent a “Hint taken, have a good’un” (not verbatim). She then replied saying she started having side-effects from recent medication and felt she didn’t have the mental space to handle more than one thing at a time. She concluded with “but I did not mean it to end in silence.” Didn’t probe any further, told her to drop a line when she feels like it, that there’s no pressure now as there was none before. After sleeping on it for the rest of the weekend, I now feel like I’m just waiting for a break-up text. In which case, I’d honestly just rather end it now and spare myself the indeterminate amount of time I’ll have to spend in expectation of her message, but i don’t want to do anything rash because I know I’m not even close to thinking straight now. I, again, ask and thank you for any insight. I wish this’d just end already, I swear, I feel that i just need a clear conclusion right now…