THECHEATCODE™... I remember after JOHN, in 2011 still. I think it was December, I cried to mama so loud how I had hurt everyone by "being evil with the Devil!" I had been so scared of The Devil in 2010, I was healed and got carried away I thought.. instead now I've HURT EVERYONE, especially Papa. I was crying hysterically but it was real okay
I was holding on to the FECKSTECKER in my room, falling to the ground crying about how I had hurt Papa and now he'd never see me the same again. I went into the Closet, I hid in the closet a lot then. Johnny would find me in between my clothes. Then I'd secretly cry about hurting mama, Losing her forever "how it used to be, it'll never be the same" I was singing [Last Kiss] to her through the wall from the broomcloset. Sitting on the floor, until Johnny found me
■. All I did was sing this.. sitting on the floor of my room in my pink sweatpants because they "were John's" and in the broomcloset, silently so mama didn't hear. https://youtu.be/Tf5VVmDQSEQ?si=Q70COLhCW-ahdCyU
[Remastered 4K] Last Kiss - Taylor Swift • Speak Now World Tour Live 2011 • EAS Channel
"I still remember the look on your Face, lit through the Darkness at 1:58 the words that you whispered for just us to know.. you told me you Loved me so why did you go. Away"
You find it Embarrassing don't you. I ain't fecking Care. It makes you uncomfortable that I felt that for you. It makes others uncomfortable that I'm honest about it. I ain't Feckin CEARE, that's the truth. I loved you, JOHN. You totally knew, you felt it also. I'm not that Naive.. I saw that Sign. Done make me feel CRAZY like it wasn't so.
☑️. WHY flip off your feelings, because people think it's emberassing. Fuck Off, Taylor sings about it in an Arena full of people. Why you so mf Easy, JOHN
■. So what if we didn't meet, so mf what. I ain't fecking caere. Then you should've met me
■. "It was already SO DEEP, didn't even meet you." So what, so what. So mf what.
🗡. You were there JOHN.. you took me so deep with you. You were in it as well, it wasn't just me yk
... I kept it a secret, but you didn't SHOW up. It was just a COOL thing. It could've been amazing, instead you.. just don't. You leave me hanging, you don't even send one thing. Then you Die in some Dimension and come back like a Feelingless CLOWN. You made me feel Crazy, like I was CRAZY. John, why.. you could've met me after. You could've said how you felt, you didn't! You ignored me, I was IGNORED. Until you send me a Voicememo in January 2019
Suddenly it is clear to me, YOU DID KNOW and you DID feel it. You did Lurk and you did know my name. You knew all my profiles, still.. and it was just like I was on the phone with you. I'm going Crazy! I'm losing my mind, because 9yrs I tried to get this out of you.
"Do you know My Name, JOHN"
9yrs trying to GET OVER you and yet all at once I'm falling right back. I'm happy, but then I'm terrified. It were REAL MF FEELINGS. I can't leave a thing if there's no #Closure.
■. Trying to stay close to get it out of him that he knew me. I needed to KNOW in order to ever move on at all
■. Still in LOVE with him, but broken every night again and again. Just being ignored
✔️. Trying to get over him, was BULLSHIT. I'm still close because there's no Closure. But, he's breaking me every day
I wasn't over him at all, just TRYING to balance a weird thing "I'm in Love with you, but I need to get over it.. I just need you to SAY MY NAME. Then I can, why you break my ❤️"
... he just!! Kept me in Love with him, because that's just LOGIC. It was there, I would always be anyway. It was just painful being in Love with a boy, having to stay so close to him.. because he didn't admit it. There was no #CLOSURE, I can't leave.. but having to see him with all these girls. Being ignored by him
× I'm in LOVE with you, I think it was Obvious. I didn't make it clear?! Oh, I was a Fan bitch
× YOU GOTTA at least answer me, tell me how you Feel. Why you ignore me. This way I can never get over you
✔️. NOW it just me sitting here, watching you date girls while I'm in pain. You broke me ❤️ every single night, AGAIN & AGAIN
× YOU GOTTA at least answer me, tell me how you Feel. Why you ignore me. This way I can never get over you
✔️. NOW it just me sitting here, watching you date girls while I'm in pain. You broke me ❤️ every single night, AGAIN & AGAIN
YOU DON'T FEEL, I SAW IT IN YOUR EYES OKAY. YOU TOTALLY KNEW, DON'T YOU GET THAT I'M JUST A WIZARD. YOU FLIPPED OFF YOUR FEELINGS AND YOU HAD A HEARTATTACK AT SOME CONCERT JOHN BECAUSE YOU GAVE ME SEVERAL. YOU TRIED TO FLIP IT OFF MANY TIMES, BUT I COULD GET YOU BACK
🗡. You fucking died, Piet. You died, you just came back in another Dimension. The real JOHN who was born in 3D in Ireland the way I met him.. is dead bitch. He's still in Coma
I've got one F*cking strong heart, JOHN okay. You can't kill me with your cold stare. You tried to close it off, because "it was emberassing" because it went so Deep only through the air. SO WHAT. You gave me like 5 severe mf heartattacks. I was feeling like my heart was being TORN to pieces in my body ya.
I survived, all of them. I was killed LATER though, by a Pill. By the doctor, she thought I should die. It was because she saw my pain, it was an Euthenasiapill I ain't asked for
.... I'M STILL HERE BUT I DIDN'T GO THROUGH ANOTHER DIMENSION AND SLICED MYSELF INTO PIECES. I HAD TO DO IT THIS WAY. I HAD TO GO THROUGH HELL FOR 7 YEARS AND HEAL IT. I AM JUST A GHOST, MY BODY IS GONE JOHN. I HAVE NOT GOT THAT SAME ONE. I HAVE SOME ENERGETIC BODY, IT'S BARELY REAL
DO YOU CARE THAT A YOUNG GIRL IN LOVE WAS BRUTALLY MURDERED AFTER SURVIVING 5 HEARTATTACKS BY A DOCTOR WHO GAVE HER A EUTHANASIAPILL THEN HER BODY WAS MF STOLEN?
... I took that pill, it felt heavy. It was a heavy white pill, I got only one and she told me "just take it, you'll sleep" it felt serious. In my bed I was getting ready to take it, doubting. I felt scared. Suddenly the "guilt" came over me, like daggers in my whole body I felt like I had hurt everybody. My father, my mother.. it all came back. I wanted to Die, so I took it
I went through a tunnel, everything flashed before my eyes really fast. Also good things, WAY too fast to really see a thing though. I don't know where it ended, I just slept. Really DEEPLY, so deep that I don't know how long it was. I woke up, and it was "the same day still" I only slept a few hours. But it was Eery
Doctor: "I'll give you one now, the rest I'll put on Recipe"
THIS IS THE GIRL YOU WERE IN LOVE WITH, ASSHOLE. SHE WAS KILLED BY A DOCTOR, SHE'S BASICALLY STILL TWEETING YOU FROM THE GRAVE
Just because it was heavy and the Doctor saw my state was bad. Maybe she thought I was doing Cocaine.. my heart was probably WEAKaf. She did test it
... I came into the Doctor's offices making a scene with my dad. I was PISSED and I was kicking the walls. I told them "you did this to me, look what's left of me. Assholes! Kanker away, no" I looked dark, my father looks Turkish. They thought I was some LOVERBOY victim
●. Insane ANGER, inappropriate in an Office. It points to druguse
●. The father is Turkish, both the parents are sitting there in the waitingroom looking insanely sad and guilty.
●. The girl looks nice but absolutely beaten up, she can't even comb her hair. It's all a mess, she don't seem to care. Tells the doctor she can't BEAR it and wants to die
●. She took my pulse but only sighed
●. The father is Turkish, both the parents are sitting there in the waitingroom looking insanely sad and guilty.
●. The girl looks nice but absolutely beaten up, she can't even comb her hair. It's all a mess, she don't seem to care. Tells the doctor she can't BEAR it and wants to die
●. She took my pulse but only sighed
OFCOURSE THE DOCTOR WAS WRONG, SHE'S A MF MURDERER. SHE DON'T ASK ONE THING TO CONFIRM ANY OF HER MF BIASES. IT WASN'T LIKE THAT
✔️. She's a Psychotic KANKERPokke
Pokke: "she looks Turkish, the father is probably a dog who sold her to some uncle who made her into a Lovergirl. She was fed Cocaine and was raped. It's better she dies, her heart is really fast and weak already"
I am Andy Gibb in this Life, the way JOHN was Andy in the 70s.
Don't tell me you can't see this is John Grimes. I fell in love with Andy Gibb right before finding John & Edward.
He was killed by this woman. Victoria Principal. She was a lot older, and he fell crazy in love. Until she halted it all at once, he didn't get it and did Cocaine.. his heart just stopped.
✔️. Andy died in 1988, he was 30
You just thought I was her
I get that you thought that, John.. butt‼️ closing off your heart is gonna kill you harder. You should've just jumped in again, yes. Even if it was Victoria.
✔️. Even if I was Victoria, but I'm not. Okay, I would never do that. I HATE her. I read the whole story Andyjohn
... she was such a Bitch, I read it. She told lies about how "Andy was such a big user" I ain't mf believe it. Maybe he took a pill in Ibiza, he wasn't some COKEDUDE. I see it in his eyes, he's clear as day. Then she tells him, that she loves him so much.. and Andy is super sensitive and she's this BIG ACTRESS and she's beautiful. He honestly Loved her and she Loved him too. But what killed it was Society, they were TOO FAR APART IN AGE
It was 1980 when it starts, Fine! He's like 21.. and she's basically in her 30s.
●. I also thought this was creepy, yes. Me, Elina.. I thought she was a Preying Pedophilic BITCH
He didn't die because of her Creepiness, you know. She was a PEDOPHILE™, ya. She just was‼️ she just saw this younger boy. He was basically a teenager, and in the mind especially. Men can do that, women CAN NOT. This was not some Fantasy, this was 3D reality. She was just a wh*re for going after him, sorry. Then she Fucked with his heart and his mind, only to leave him Dead and not caring a fecking teardrop about it.
■. WOMEN are already stronger & more mature in the mind. The agedifference is way bigger now
■. GIRLS are moms to their boyfriends, even when she's younger. That's why it breaks the boy. Boys are soft, Andy was like the softest boy ever.
■. GIRLS are moms to their boyfriends, even when she's younger. That's why it breaks the boy. Boys are soft, Andy was like the softest boy ever.
🗡. He still loved her, for the good side she showed in Private. She did really Love him
🗡. What killed him was not that she was OLDER, he just took that. It was how she just suddenly turned cold to him, in Private as well and went with Society. "You're too young, we gotta end it"
🗡. What killed him was not that she was OLDER, he just took that. It was how she just suddenly turned cold to him, in Private as well and went with Society. "You're too young, we gotta end it"
... Andy was so innocent and stupid as well. I cursed him a bit there, YA.. because‼️. That's a wh*re to begin with, she go after you Andy. You were only 21. Look at her Face, she's mean. Did you Iook up the others she dated, why you so naive. Then, I get that she was SWEET to you Andy. I get that she had a good heart. Yes, probably it still worked for 55% and only when she was with you..
Butt‼️ that's because you're so Sweet. She couldn't fight to catch Feelings. Her intention was not to THO
●. Andy, she made you feel Special. Only with you she wasn't a bitch
●. It was a Compliment that she wanted you, you're cute but a little Ego there. Only because she was popular. She ain't even that pretty
●. Her intention was not to Fall for you, that just happened because her heart still worked and you are just so cute
●. It was a Compliment that she wanted you, you're cute but a little Ego there. Only because she was popular. She ain't even that pretty
●. Her intention was not to Fall for you, that just happened because her heart still worked and you are just so cute
"⁉️. WHAT did she mf want then."
So sorry, Andy.. she wanted Barry. She was after Barry Gibb, your brother in that life. Not because she was in love with him, just for sex. He was a Popular SEXMAN in that time. She's just a basicrobot
✔️. So, you found this one. Victoria Rose.. who is also "just a basicrobot"
JOHN, ANDY.. don't you know about Barry. The STORY about your death, mf you don't KNOW⁉️
☑️. #BARRYGIBB, 1988.
■. Andy Gibb his little bother, is deeply in love with Victoria Principal. He don't see Andy a lot, he is busy with her. The father is worried sick about Andy, he's kind of the favorite. Barry probably know Victoria wants him. But that's not Confirmed anywhere
●. He lost contact with Andy
●. He calls him up after it's told to him that he's in the Hospital fighting several heartattacks.
■. Andy Gibb his little bother, is deeply in love with Victoria Principal. He don't see Andy a lot, he is busy with her. The father is worried sick about Andy, he's kind of the favorite. Barry probably know Victoria wants him. But that's not Confirmed anywhere
●. He lost contact with Andy
●. He calls him up after it's told to him that he's in the Hospital fighting several heartattacks.
HOW I KNOW?! IT IS ON THE INTERNET. I LOOKED THOSE THINGS UP FOR HOURS. I READ EVERY FORUM.. DEEPEST CORNERS OF THE NET AND OLD LETTERS I'VE READ AND FOUND. I HAVE PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY
... no, Victoria Rose isn't real. She's really just a Robot based on GAMEPLAYcode from several things. She was a Sign from a #PastLife and from me. I basichated her, she's playing Tomb Raider. She's playing me
Victoria Principal did Die ya, she's reincarnated also. The woman on Google is a WAXDOLL.
✔️. No, it's not Victoria Justice
✔️. Taylor & me are really in SYNC, it's Camilla Belle. "Better than Revenge"
Taylor had to deal with her as well, but she was UNREASONABLY mad at her. I'm not mad at her at all. I'm mad at Andy.
[Remastered 4K] Better Than Revenge - Taylor Swift • Speak Now World Tour Live 2011 • EAS Channel
Taylor, you didn't even Care about JOE.. the pain you felt was for the Truck. You had Joe for show only, he's not your type at all. You only used him than you hurt him, the song wasn't EVEN about them. Can you Fuck Off, bimbo
☑️. "Dramashow for Views"
■. #BetterThanRevenge.
you really ain't impress me you know. I don't Likey that song, only when I need it.. I'll get it. Because I can Slice off your nastiness and Feel your real feelings in it
🗡. Joe is not your type
🗡. You crying about him was Eery, it was real though. It was about Truck
🗡. Camilla did nothing, she dated him after the break up.
✔️. Joe just wanted to break up with you and you didn't let him. Bossy bitch, he was still your Doggy "not time yet!"
... you used Joe for Views and Popularity in WONDERLAND, hope you had fun performing for Robots. He did the exact same thing to you. I'm just biased, I'm not GAY
■. I'm not mad at Victoria Principal.. I wasn't in that life so she didn't steal him from me. I was just Jealous in the moment, seeing a boy I Liked "in theory" with a girl. Gosh
(#Jealous in THEORY™)
■. Andy was ugly in that Life, JOHN used to be sexy. I'm a straightforward Dutch model of intelligence.
(#Superficial™)
■. Camilla Belle isn't related to JOHN or any boys I know. She didn't hurt you either, Tay. Andy is the bitch for turning Cold for some old Pussy
(GET REAL)
.... I Fell in love with Andy based on a REALLY blurry video from the 70s. You never had that? So common in the 70s you know. You think he's Cute, then you get a Poster and it's a hairy monkey. Ah‼️.
People people people, you look like sheep. Ofcourse he's gotta be SEXY, gosh. It's hard to admit, isn't it. You try so hard to date the uggies, just to please Jesus and the Christian Faith. Don't you
... just because I took it don't mean I knew it was a Murderpill. I'm innocent, I don't know a thing. I only know "so much as I have time to Figure" I didn't even know MYSELF I had died since a year ago. It just all suddenly makes sense only if I would've Died. And so, I remembered how it went