But it doesn't matter what I say, what I do, what I feel, what I post. Nobody do a thing I wish for anyway. It doesn't matter, because it's me. Nobody knows how to deal wit me
🌎. I can go all big and mad about and act like I know it all, but that's really because I've stopped caring. I'm just going for "a snippet" of Love at this point. Losing Zorro was the end for me, I don't have hope. I'm going for "maybe, SOMEONE will" I don't try so much and I need to yell for survival. Half the things I say is not REALLY me, it's more me from other lives and Characters I need to take on to make a #Statement. It's Protection. I don't KNOW if I'm right, I just act like I know
... I'm just acting like this, because I don't care anymore so much. "I'm dying anyway! But I've still got that snippet of hope"
■. "Maybe this Character will help?"
■. "I NEED to, it feels wrong. It's Proteccy. Do"
... I'm TRYING so hard to find the #PerfectCode for some boy or even girl to just come to find me and get me to a place. I can't do it all alone, even if I can survive.. then I'll walk the streets forever alone. Fine, but that's not my wish. It hurts, I want this not. So I'm trying, trying. For safety and for Love