DurianI want a boyfriend, but I feel like I don't deserve to have one, and I keep alternating between those two thoughts which is making me feel confused. Is this normal?
TheFANUM This is undiagnosed mental illness. Please get a mental health assessment (any hospital can probably do it, just call around).
It gets better. When I did this I was diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety. They put me on meds that immediately solved 50% of my worst symptoms. Overnight.
It was magical and my life has only continued to improve ever since