DurianI want a boyfriend, but I feel like I don't deserve to have one, and I keep alternating between those two thoughts which is making me feel confused. Is this normal?
Snot FlickermanI’d find it embarrassing because I’m gross.
It sounds like you’re suffering from depressive issues. Everyone deserves love and nearly everyone is sexually attractive to at least someone. With roughly 4 billion potential mates (give or take a few hundred million), you have what is honestly near infinite possibilities for finding someone who loves you for who you are.
However, it might help to get help for the depression first. Anyway, everyone deserves love and to be desired. That includes you.
You have been single for ten years, it’s time to free yourself and at least try to find someone. As someone else who is single and also struggles with depression and self-image issues, I wish you all the best.
FredselfishI agree with the other comment. Everyone deserves love and there is someone who will desire you. I would seek therapy as something that may help, it always help me. Look in the mirror, when your getting ready for your day and say to yourself. "I am beautiful, I am wanted, I am awesome " Do that everyday, because you are. I am positive you have something wonderful to bring to a relationship, and there is someone out there wanting your love in return.
Share something if you like that you enjoy doing, a hobby. What’s the last book you read, or movie you enjoyed. I am interested to learn new things and it can help by talking about things you enjoy.