My fears has come true... And yet I'm glad that this is his own decision... It's too painful, but I understand his reasons... I wish him well.
I doubt this letter ever reaches him, but I write and post this for the sake of it anyway:
I still can't stop crying...
Maybe...at the end of last year, and the beginning of this year, and probably before April... He never expected that everything---especially his mental health, will take a huge toll on him. All those things/plans that everyone (and probably him) excited for this year... Gone.
Because he choose to save himself.
I wish and pray that he never loses heart, and (I know I've said this, and I'll say this again) I wish he won't have to fight his battles all by himself from now on. As far as I know, I'm glad that he have trusted friends by his side. And Emil-chan, his doggo.
I wish him safety, peace and happiness.