Gard Witch CraftSometimes I feel so lonely. I want so desperately some kind of community, but I feel like a stranger everywhere. There is no place in the world where people like me can feel accepted. How easy it was to just listen to propaganda or gurus, how nice it was to know that somewhere there are people who believe in the same things you do. And how hard it is to wake up and think your own thoughts, to feel your own heart. Because from now on, there is only one thing I can be sure of: I will never find a single living being who will truly understand me.
AlienKnight@gard_witch_craft I have these thoughts often too. Maybe it's because my brain isn't like everyone else's, but over time I've learned that a community can be 2-3 close friends, and shared or diverse interests!
Over time I've also slowly become more accepting and I suppose, loving of my own company. Our brains can be our best friends, or our worst enemies, but there can also be a nice middle ground, where you are just the best you that you can be
I don't know if this helps, or if it just makes things worse, but I've got faith that you'll be able to get the community you desire in time, even if it looks a little different than you envision it today :)
@linkeddev Thank you for your words, they are really important. Sometimes I forget that not perfect doesn't mean completely bad.