my biggest mistake in life is attaching too much value to other people's opinions of me! what a horrible way to create self-esteem, and so reliant on your own imagination and insecurities!

what YOU think OTHER people think of you is fantasy!

subconscious self-hate transference

@McFunkypants corporate world invented performance reviews for exactly that: they make sure you're aware of what other people think of you, for conscious self-hate transference and then some. :)

(Even joking about this stuff is so entirely soulless. Everyone should avoid corpos.)