I feel bad,
I feel as if the machine has its boot not in my neck but in my chest, in my heart and my soul.
Why do I feel so unable to move?
I just want to help but everything I do feels so futile.
I just want it to stop but I know it won't stop soon.
Their infrastructure is decades long and even before that, a genocidal state endorsed by its predecessors.
The colonial machine has an infrastructure of so so so so many decades... and maybe even before that, I don't know, la SEP kept me ignorant.

It's just, everything is so connected...
Every oppressive structure helps to keep upholding this one.

Ofc I had dreams of saviorism, you just want pain to stop, and the glory feels nice right? History is always told as saviorism, you want to be like them, the great this, the great that... the leaders

Unlearning that is a process, letting go of individualism and ego is a process, learning to exist in community and solidarity is a process, how do you make the process smoother for social anxiety?