So, without an official ADHD diagnosis, there's no further med options at this time. And was told to manage via non-med coping tactics via scheduling and assorted everything I've been trying for many years will little success. :/

The reason I even was reaching out in first place is that those methods haven't worked and I've been deeply frustrated and was seeking options to assist. And for conclusion to be "eh, it's social media addiction" is exhausting.

I'm having one more meeting in a few weeks with coyote husbando there to give further perspective. If don't get any semi solid path forward, will seek second opinion.

Should the conclusion be: I just shouldn't have ambitions to create stuff on regular? That I shouldn't seek solution for my deep seated procrastination issues? That I should settle with just doing "nothing much" with free time and just allow myself to fade into non-creative downtime overall? That all this guilt of not indulging in projects should just be "welp, guess I'll never do any of that"?

Bah. Fucking frustrating.

@geoholms As someone who just went through the process of ADHD assessment, I would say seek a second opinion now. I would also say I know its expensive to get assessed but its absolutely worth saving up for. It brought my ENTIRE life into perspective for the first time.
@codex I'll make some calls to some places today. 👌
@geoholms @codex Hard agree. It did not fix all my problems, but at least gave me the tools to start building a ladder out of the hole. I wish I had better recommendations for dealing with The American Healthcare System/Disaster for you :-/