I have returned from the Fringe festival for the third time feeling worse than when I left and I wasn’t doing so great when I left. I do not feel rested from my holiday or satisfied with my accomplishments.
I feel like Dr Manhatten all the time, tired of Earth, these people.
Yet I cannot stop believing that I’m the problem. I feel like a square shaped piece for a round hole universe.
I don’t have a purpose to this post. I just needed somewhere to vent. I am tired.
I don’t like myself.
I don’t feel like I am who I was.
I don’t feel like I am who I want to be.
I don’t think I am who I am meant to be.
I don’t like the image of me in other people’s heads.
I do all the things I am supposed to: I eat well, I excerise, I socialise, I surround myself with stimulating and exciting activities and I end up feeling worse than when I started.
I sit in the car not knowing why I would go inside but relieved I no longer have to be at work.
Nothing I used to do brings me joy anymore.
I dream of being washed away by the tide.
@Crusader1089 As a person who has been there...
Give the feeling its proper name: Depression.
There is nothing wrong with asking for help. There is no reason you should suffer in silence. You deserve to feel better.
Please take care of yourself.🌻
Crusader1089
Kinene⭐🐻