gadgetoidHad an absolute trash fire irredeemably miserable day. Foregone cooking one of the multiple expired things in the fridge. Ordered curry. Neurodivergence is expensive.
concretedog@gadgetoid hope your evening improves. I've had a long day/week.. but have cooked curry.. now at the "too tired to eat it phase"!
Gina Häußge@concretedog @gadgetoid Spent the whole day working on the 3d printer after a clog of doom, swapped the hotend, fought with the extruder, and in the end had to stop because the reason for the clog turned out to be a broken hotend fan (replacement on the way). In the middle I was *this* close to just throwing the whole thing out of the window, which turned out to be caused by being hangry.
Still frustrated, wanted to play some games today, not spend the whole day trouble shooting 😕
@foosel @concretedog aaaand this is why I’ve been apprehensive to pick up a 3D printer 😱😭
Does this brand of chaos happen often?
@gadgetoid @concretedog Thankfully not. I just had some really bad roll of the dice it seems like 😅
@foosel @concretedog start printing a very large mallet so it knows what’ll happen if it goes wrong again 🤣
Do you find you get sucked into an inescapable vacuum of troubleshooting, and cant stop even when it’s rational to down tools and sleep on it?
@gadgetoid @concretedog I do, but sometimes I'm also able to stop myself thankfully. I actually ran into the issue around midnight, discovered how bad it was and decided that was something that future me would have to solve after a full night of sleep. It helped that my partner was already sleeping and I had actually gotten out of bed again to look at what was up with the printer - if this had happened earlier in the day I might have found myself not being able to let go at bedtime.
@gadgetoid @concretedog I should also mention that I'm strongly suspecting to be neurodivergent (current guess being AuDHD) but still lack the spoons (and chance) to get that diagnosed.
@foosel @concretedog saaaaammmmmeeeeeee 😭
I have some pretty strong childhood evidence to support my suspicion along with… well events like the one I just described and my slow descent into absolute total burnout and a couple of recent total meltdowns. My point being that you can more or less ignore it for a long, long time but then some stressor will come up and send you over an edge you didn’t know was there 😬
@foosel @concretedog but I guess TLDR: don’t be me and gaslight yourself into thinking you’re fine because you’re coping 🫠 trust your instinct and the signs and act like you’re already diagnosed.
@gadgetoid @concretedog That's actually what I've been doing for over a year now, and it has helped me a ton :D Has allowed me to feel less bad about problems with myself and just go "ok, that's how I am, and this is what helps".
Ask my buddy @wasrel how often I went "oooooh, that's a symptom?" while I was going down the whole rabbit hole initially XD
@foosel @gadgetoid @wasrel yeah thats pretty much my approach to life. I am utterly ADHD but have no official diagnosis. The waiting list and battles for my local authority to get a diagnosis are so horrid, I seem to have developed some good systems so yeah.. it is what it is!
@concretedog @gadgetoid @wasrel I was in utter denial due to "but I don't have enough issues for that, I'm actually having my life under control" until I realised that this was thanks to countless coping strategies I had developed since early childhood to work around my issues.
Recent example: putting something into the hallway on the way to the bedroom - my yoga roll - to remind myself that the BBQ is still open and cooling and needs to be covered before bed.
@foosel @gadgetoid @wasrel In a risk of oversharing... I had LOADS of what they now call "ACE"s, Adverse Childhood Experiences.. trauma triggered and masked over my non neurotypical stuff but, luckily (!) my mental health totally reached crisis in my early 20's. My route out of that has been very methodical mental and emotional self honesty... which is massively useful in accepting and running with my ADHDness and other non NT stuff! :)
@concretedog @gadgetoid @wasrel See, I can't say that I had such experiences, and that's where I then always start to think I'm wrong about myself after all 😂
I just know I've always been the weird one that didn't fully fit in (being a STEM focused *girl* didn't help), found large social situations extremely exhausting and could spend hours learning about something new - nothing of this has changed either 😅
I thought everything else was just how it is for everyone until I learned it ain't 😬
@gadgetoid @foosel @wasrel Whilst I didnt at the time.. I do feel quite lucky.. I got forced to work out a load of stuff early on! I keep meeting people a bit older than me know (so people knocking up to 60 odd) who are just starting to explore this stuff and have masked for sooo long. More challenging to do the work I imagine. I'm quite happy with me... I do everything the hard way but tend to feel right with myself most of the time!