gadgetoidHad an absolute trash fire irredeemably miserable day. Foregone cooking one of the multiple expired things in the fridge. Ordered curry. Neurodivergence is expensive.
concretedog@gadgetoid hope your evening improves. I've had a long day/week.. but have cooked curry.. now at the "too tired to eat it phase"!
Gina Häußge@concretedog @gadgetoid Spent the whole day working on the 3d printer after a clog of doom, swapped the hotend, fought with the extruder, and in the end had to stop because the reason for the clog turned out to be a broken hotend fan (replacement on the way). In the middle I was *this* close to just throwing the whole thing out of the window, which turned out to be caused by being hangry.
Still frustrated, wanted to play some games today, not spend the whole day trouble shooting 😕
@foosel @concretedog aaaand this is why I’ve been apprehensive to pick up a 3D printer 😱😭
Does this brand of chaos happen often?
@gadgetoid @concretedog Thankfully not. I just had some really bad roll of the dice it seems like 😅
@foosel @concretedog start printing a very large mallet so it knows what’ll happen if it goes wrong again 🤣
Do you find you get sucked into an inescapable vacuum of troubleshooting, and cant stop even when it’s rational to down tools and sleep on it?
@gadgetoid @concretedog I do, but sometimes I'm also able to stop myself thankfully. I actually ran into the issue around midnight, discovered how bad it was and decided that was something that future me would have to solve after a full night of sleep. It helped that my partner was already sleeping and I had actually gotten out of bed again to look at what was up with the printer - if this had happened earlier in the day I might have found myself not being able to let go at bedtime.
@gadgetoid @concretedog I should also mention that I'm strongly suspecting to be neurodivergent (current guess being AuDHD) but still lack the spoons (and chance) to get that diagnosed.
@foosel @concretedog saaaaammmmmeeeeeee 😭
I have some pretty strong childhood evidence to support my suspicion along with… well events like the one I just described and my slow descent into absolute total burnout and a couple of recent total meltdowns. My point being that you can more or less ignore it for a long, long time but then some stressor will come up and send you over an edge you didn’t know was there 😬
@foosel @concretedog but I guess TLDR: don’t be me and gaslight yourself into thinking you’re fine because you’re coping 🫠 trust your instinct and the signs and act like you’re already diagnosed.
@gadgetoid @concretedog That's actually what I've been doing for over a year now, and it has helped me a ton :D Has allowed me to feel less bad about problems with myself and just go "ok, that's how I am, and this is what helps".
Ask my buddy @wasrel how often I went "oooooh, that's a symptom?" while I was going down the whole rabbit hole initially XD
@foosel @gadgetoid @wasrel yeah thats pretty much my approach to life. I am utterly ADHD but have no official diagnosis. The waiting list and battles for my local authority to get a diagnosis are so horrid, I seem to have developed some good systems so yeah.. it is what it is!
@concretedog @gadgetoid @wasrel I was in utter denial due to "but I don't have enough issues for that, I'm actually having my life under control" until I realised that this was thanks to countless coping strategies I had developed since early childhood to work around my issues.
Recent example: putting something into the hallway on the way to the bedroom - my yoga roll - to remind myself that the BBQ is still open and cooling and needs to be covered before bed.
@foosel @concretedog @wasrel oh gosh I’m aware of that technique but terrible at using it!
Literally just got myself two cans of drink out to mix into a mad ginger and pineapple something then got distracted by a coffeee pod and started making coffee then found myself in the tea bags and now I’m back on task 🤣
@gadgetoid @concretedog @wasrel Yeah, that sounds all to familiar if I don't put reminders up for myself.
You might also spot me walking through my apartment from room to room going "fetch $thing" under my breath so I don't forget until I've got it in my hands.
I'm also known to put notes in between the keys on my keyboard for myself to discover the next day, and leave uncompilable "The problem is ...., fix this tomorrow!" sentences right into my code at the end of the day.