recently things were going slow-paced, but i finally managed to feel an 'up' rather than the usual 'down'
i can read again, alas i fall asleep in less than a chapter; nature is nice, there are fruits and flowers and i get to see a beautiful man weekly. i hope to see more friends soon, so that we can listen to music altogether, and one day maybe drink milk..

sadly i became an adult, and now i have to do adult things such as appointment to the bank and wake up on a sunday to vote, but time can't be stopped...
soon i'll go back to study. i'm scared

any way, yesterday i felt an illumination by visiting merle's (thank you) website and remembered that i'm an artist too, and i can paint and write, sing and compose like i used to
i remembered i enjoy living, and many more things, thank you

picture of my cat dostoyevsky, courtesy of my boyfriend