StreaksIt’s cruel when social media gives me little dopamine hits because it’s a “crashing to earth moment” right after when I remember how bad everything is.
Things have not been great lately. Depression, self-harm, drastic mood swings have become common. I’ve drifted away from most people I care about and I’ve been so busy with work and school that I haven’t even had time to try and reach out.
It may be brain chemicals but I don’t feel like “me” anymore. I don’t feel like I’m even here really. I want to find meaning in the drifting and little scraps of relief but I worry things are broken and they can never be fixed.