It’s frustrating because I learned from the call that there are things I really REALLY need to do, but there’s no chance. Collect a bunch of documents and fill out a form and potentially make more calls?
Passsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
It’s frustrating to have a disability that you can’t explain just *how* it’s disabling. I have to make a call, but I can’t make a call. Even if I could just understand it myself it might be a big help.
Why the fuck are certain things so difficult they are sometimes impossible? I have no idea! I usually at least know which things are like that because I get that “this is gonna suuuuuuuck” feeling but I just don’t get it really. How can I not do it? How can other people do it? It makes no sense.
I mean, social model explains why it’s disabling: society shouldn’t require me to make calls that I struggle with so much. I could easily live my life in a world more suited to me.
But still, why the hell can I do other stuff but not this? Hell, why is it I can do this exact thing in a different context? I spend so much time introspecting but I still can’t see the mechanisms.
@Sophie it's likely a learned anxiety/panic response
how you learned it doesn't matter too much when it comes to unlearning it
all you really have to do is expose yourself to the situation long enough for any related symptoms to go down again (your body can only sustain maximum anxiety/panic for about half an hour)
rinse and repeat and the response will be weaker every time
for me doing unrelated/less challenging yet similar situations also helped with the more daunting ones
Sophie 🎲🏳️⚧️
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