Some jerk downvoted you but the first time I try many drugs, I don’t feel much/anything.

I tried (good) X with friends who took THE SAME PILLS three times before it actually hit me. I was so disappointed looking at their giant eyes and gurning jaws and thinking “I’ll just think myself happier, that’s what I’m supposed to feel I think”

The fourth time I tried with the same friends, the same stuff, and it was fucking MAGICAL. Beyond euphoric. I knew then that my self-happy-thinking was indeed NOT the feeling I was supposed to have. Holy shit.