Some folks have asked about when the Ruby Learning Center might continue, and currently I'm afraid the answer is that it won't.

When we started classes we frequently had 15-20 people engaging, and as we got through them that number started falling to 1-2, and eventually to 0.

Frequently I would be spending hours creating and preparing content to no audience and no reception.

Perhaps it's petty, but it kills my motivation especially considering how much effort went into running it.

I find this to be true with a lot of my Ruby content. I can spend hours, days, weeks, even months preparing things to get crickets on the other end.

Frankly it makes me question my own worth and whether what I say has any value to folks, and being who I am that makes me turtle up and just stop creating altogether.

I've been in a low place for a while now on content creation, and I cannot find the motivation to continue.

Often times that leads me to question whether I still have a home in Ruby, or if it's time for me to move on and find another community.

Likely my next few Ruby talks will be my last, as I try and find a way to start rebuilding my confidence after a rough last few years.

I'll still be here, but I need to find a healthier engagement that fulfills me and I fear I do not find that here.

@baweaver Hi Brandon, thanks for being vulnerable and sharing your experience in public, at times I’ve related to many of these feelings. We don’t really know each other but I’ve been enjoying your ruby commentary for a while on Mastodon, it’d be a huge loss for the community that you left. You often bring perspectives that resonate a lot with me, that few other people are talking about. Remember your impact goes far beyond what can be measured by social media.